Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Lately I've had a lot of people tell me things such as, "You've sure got your hands full!" "She's going to give you a run for your money!" And other various looks, expressions, etc. to the same effect. I'm just as guilty and I feel sorry for myself plenty of times when my kids are a little more than I feel I'm able to handle at the time. However, more than anything, I feel sorry for those people who don't know how my kids really are! Especially my little girl. Taysum is much better able to express himself now and he is VERY social and just loves adults. However, Bailey is still working through some social anxieties. More often than not, we'll be in some social setting and she'll be upset. Some well meaning soul will approach us to "help" and Bailey (literally) throws herself into being twice as upset as she was before. I try to keep moving, but they insist their idea will calm her down. 10 for 10 they cower away wondering why they tried in the first place. I appreciate their intent, but she has some social anxieties that just make some things difficult for her to deal with. So, she starts out feeling upset and insecure that Ken and I can't fulfill what she feels MUST be fulfilled at that time; then someone she doesn't know approaches and for all she knows, is about to take her away from what little security she is feeling from us at that time. Can anyone really blame her? It's been this way for about the past two years and it breaks my heart that I caused it (long story but true...not playing the blaming game or anything). So, I wish they understood it's me...not her. Precious few lucky people get to see her sweet, loving, incredible personality!! She speaks SO well and says the sweetest things! She is so forgiving and generous. She is also independant and confident and knows what and when she wants things; I really admire that in her. She is such a joy! Her smile and her big brown eyes melt my heart! She loves her brother so much and would follow him anywhere! She really is just amazing! She gives such wonderful hugs and kisses. She loves animals and to be a part of whatever is going on at the time. She is so aware of what the rest of us are doing and where we are. She is very tender-hearted as well. She loves to dance and sing. She is so aware of her surroundings; she'll always point out the local landmarks as we drive through town: church, the street lights, the store, Taysum's school, our house. She amazes me on a daily basis!! Same thing with my little boy! He is so smart! He is so tender and loving! He often includes Hayden in what is going on, even though he is still inside me! He takes such good care of his sister and tries to include her in everything he does. His Daddy is his hero and he's is also such a good little helper to me! He has a great memory and he is always so positive and uplifting to those around him. He has so much energy and love for everyone and everything around him. I admire him SO much! The other night a little boy wasn't being very nice to him and he came over not understanding why he didn't want to play with him...he was very hurt and it broke my heart. I tried to comfort him as much as I could and he went off to play again. The next time I saw him, he was trying again to connect with that same little boy and the boy was responding. I was so proud of him! He tries so hard to please us as his parents. Even though he has some difficulties and frustrations, I have to say how much I admire how well he really handles things! He's come so far! Heaven, knows I'm far from being a great Mom...but I do love my kids with all my heart and I wouldn't trade them for ANYTHING different! They amaze me everyday and give me hope that I can be worth something to someone someday. I am so blessed to have them in my life! They are so incredible and I hope others will be blessed with the same priveledge to get to know them the way I have!!
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